Random Post 2

 Today, I officially booked my flight out of here. My last day living in Los Angeles will be December 19th, my last day as an official student and Los Angeles resident. I also booked my flight out of the United States. My last day in the United States will be January 16th,  2025, where I will officially begin my journey in Brasil and living overseas. 

I took a leap of faith and became a DJ my freshman year of school, and now I am living and working in that same position, touring the world and doing shows in major cities. Coming to USC I had never expected that to happen, so it is a really special (and proud moment) for myself. So my next step will be studying music and working a few shows in Brasil, until the next part of my journey makes sense for me. 

Truthfully, I am TERRIFIED! I always remembered seniors talking about this anxiety that came with graduation, but never could comprehend how intense these feelings are. I've only got about 6 weeks left of school, and I've been in the education system for almost all of my life now. I wished time would go faster, that school would be over and I could be free, but time passed so quickly I can't even process it. I can't believe just 3 and a half years ago, I was in my dorm room feeling terrified of the next years of college ahead of me. Now it all has passed by! 

I don't have any regrets, I am honestly really happy with the way that I am walking away from school. Will be leaving with no debts, no ties, and no worries, and have created a strong career in music for myself that I will only continue to pursue harder once I am out of USC. I will finish with all A's and B's on my report card, and walk away with a Bachelor of the Arts in media arts and practice. I will also walk away with an incredible amount of stories and experiences, and friendships that I hope are life long. We are also blessed to be at a university that is embedded in the middle of a large city, so our world of experiences is pretty much endless. 

Looking back on my time at USC, I am worried that sometimes I was not involved enough, or didn't live in all of the experiences that a typical college life includes, but I had taken lots of time to meditate on my experience and understand how unique and individual it was to me. I have grown a lot as a person, its kind of funny looking back at my freshman year memories and seeing how much I have changed in all aspects of my life. I think this change is causing a bit of grieving; grieving the person and experiences I used to be/could have lived in, and preparing for a new version of myself. 

Now that I am facing a hard ending, it is kind of scary. Thinking about the fact that I have all of the possibility of the world in my hands, I can make any decision, go anywhere, and do whatever I want, I think I am a bit scared of making the wrong decision. Now that I've committed to moving abroad and changing scenery and leaning into my career as a DJ and artist, I can feel some of that same fear that I had felt when I moved to California by myself.  Reflecting back on everything though, it all turned out alright, so I will have the same faith and continue chasing whatever my next dream is. It is an absolutely terrifying but real reality, and I am excited about it.